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<\/p>\nIt’s easy to dream up grand, gigantic plans for Wide Open Games.\u00a0I tell myself it would be great to make\u00a04 polished and playful games, 3 heart-melting\u00a0essays, 2 eye-opening\u00a0poems,\u00a0and 1 down-to-earth podcast for each issue. I tell myself that’s what would get people to subscribe and make Wide Open Games a success. I tell myself that this vision is achievable and necessary.<\/p>\n
In reality, I’m setting myself up for failure with unrealistic expectations.<\/p>\n
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I live with chronic tension headaches, and I often need to stop whatever I’m doing, take my meds, put on my hypnosis recording, and rest. It’s not possible for me to work non-stop, and as hard as it is for me to accept this truth, there’s only so much I can do in a day, a week, a month.<\/p>\n
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So in envisioning Wide Open Games,\u00a0I’m trying to stay focused on the process. I make games. I write words. I draw pictures. Some weeks I make a\u00a0lot of those things, and other weeks I don’t. Both scenarios are true, and both are OK. I will work hard and deeply for Wide Open Games, but I will not work tirelessly, and I will not break myself for it. W.O.G.\u00a0is not an angel-funded tech startup- it is simply the result of my artistic practice. It\u00a0is the result of a pattern of taking action when I can,\u00a0not action in service of\u00a0fulfilling\u00a0a giant external promise.<\/p>\n
I can talk a big game and stress out about infinite money, page views, and collaborators, but what I really want is to be honest. I can spend energy on\u00a0maintaining a sunny digital persona with no illness or setbacks and unlimited productivity, but that’s not in the spirit of Wide Open Games.<\/p>\n
All you are getting with Wide Open Games is myself, and I promise to strive to bring myself as honestly as I can to Wide Open Games. Sometimes this means you’ll see fully polished brilliance, and sometimes it means unfinished scraps and starts.\u00a0It means you\u00a0are\u00a0getting my best effort –\u00a0nothing less, but also nothing more.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
It’s easy to dream up grand, gigantic plans for Wide Open Games.\u00a0I tell myself it would be great to make\u00a04 polished and playful games, 3 heart-melting\u00a0essays, 2 eye-opening\u00a0poems,\u00a0and 1 down-to-earth podcast for each issue. I tell myself that’s what would get people to subscribe and make Wide Open Games a success. I tell myself that… Continue reading Working Gently<\/span>